1. |
Then You Forgive Me
02:39
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Today I left my house without a scarf
It was just the perfect day to freeze and starve
Today I didn’t care to take the bus
Left my wallet in the kitchen
Cause my good old guilt was itching
First you taught me how to blame myself
Then you forgive me
Then you forgive me
Then I’ve finally learned to frame myself
But who’s standing with me
I need to stand with me now
The only thing I had to do was to show up
But it was just the prefect day to lose my job
Tried so hard to keep my problems in the past
But they’re bubbling to the surface
Don’t know why I keep on punishing
Myself
First you taught me how to blame myself
Then you forgive me
Then you forgive me
Then I’ve finally learned to frame myself
But who’s standing with me
I need to stand with me now
Oh my my my my my my
I want to apologize
But I wish I knew what for
Oh my my my my my my
I want to apologize
But I wish I knew what for
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2. |
Rifle Club
03:31
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Small town bullies walking down the hall
Painting dicks on cemetery walls
My shoes are dangling from a powerline
If I manage not to feel then I’ll be fine
It’s hard to grow a pair of breasts in this fucked up town
Full of marching bands and peeping toms
Sunset and a kiss behind a tree
Vodka breath and teenage treachery
It didn’t break me that they called me names
But then you changed your mind and joined their games
While all I needed
Was a sister in arms
To cope with all the harm
Yes it was all
Bossed around as if I was a child
But lusted after, oh the bigotry
You and I we knew what we didn’t need
And when you’ve left I faced them all alone
While all I needed
Was a sister in arms
Sister in arms
Yes it was all I needed
To cope with all the harm
Doesn’t matter.
Does it matter?
When will we all feel better
When will we?
When will we?
When will I?
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3. |
Woolen Sweater
04:15
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So it’s gonna be a Monday
Your last day on this earth
And it’s true we gotta die someday
I guess you lost your nerves
And for everything there’s a solution
A service that is served
You look so thin inside your woolen sweater
I hope they give you something to feel better
Let’s go outside, and feel once more the weather
We could hold hands and say nothing together
You look so thin inside your woolen sweater
I hope they give you something to feel better
Your father made you kneel each Sunday
A beating undeserved
And even when your death is hours away
You wonder what you’re worth
And all the pills you take
Aid your confusion
A service that is served
You look so thin inside your woolen sweater
I hope they give you something to feel better
Let’s go outside, and feel once more the weather
We could hold hands and say nothing together
You look so thin inside your woolen sweater
I hope they give you something to feel better
I hope they give you something to feel better
My great-grandfather broke your heart
And you can’t forgive him ever
Haven’t you tried to break the curse?
I know you have
You don’t have to break your loved one’s heart
So they won’t forget you ever
Haven’t you tried to break the curse?
I think we all deserve much better
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4. |
Patchwork Girl
04:21
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Crawling out of seven different tombs
Oh I call them wombs
I call them everywoman
It isn’t true that there is only one way to give birth
Call it witchcraft it’s just a word
I made my way down here to earth
Seven different tombs
Oh I call them wombs
I call them everywoman
It isn’t true that there is only one way to give birth
Call it witchcraft, it’s just a word
I made my way down here to earth
I made my way down here to earth
I have many different mothers
The seventh was my lover
Yeah, Mary was a good, good girl
I’m a patchwork stitched together
That knew just how to love her
A scary tale, a girl made woman
My mothers’ limbs met on a sterile table
But a man like Frankenstein just wasn’t able
To love his ugly daughter like he loved his ugly son
From the graveyard to the trash
I made my way up here to earth
I made my way up here to earth
I’ve got different mothers
The seventh was my lover
Yeah, Mary was a good, good girl
I’m a patchwork stitched together
That knew just how to love her
A scary tale, a girl made woman
The doctor, scared of condemnation,
Left me out here for dead
Follow any pointed finger and
Soon you will discover witches
They called me an abomination,
They have called her mad
But Mary saw me whole
While you just saw the scars and stitches
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5. |
Insecurities
03:25
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She’s the one and I’ve got to tell her
Look at him her she must know
Oh got I act like a creep around her
I need to let it go
Oh she knows that I want to please her
Oh she knows that I care
I’ve always been but an awkward dreamer
How did I even dare
What if she says
Come on over now
And I can’t recall how to move somehow
Whatever she does says
Casts a spell on me
If I could still move I would be on my knees
I can’t say a thing when she get’s closer to me
A prisoner of my insecurities
Watching him glow from afar
Oh what to do with so much affection
My overflowing love
For all his flawless imperfections
I am in free fall
I need to leave it up to him now
I need to let it float
What if he says
Come on over now
And I can’t recall how to move somehow
Whatever he does says
Casts a spell on me
If I could still move I would be on my knees
I can’t say a thing when she get’s closer to me
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6. |
Dirty Secrets
04:12
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Oh when you still found it funny
You were not yet in love
Oh when you still found it funny
You were not yet in love
Love will break you
Just to save you
Love will save you and then leave
Love will tell you all your dirty secrets
And then leave you
Alone with them
Love will tell you all your dirty secrets
And then leave you
Alone
Back when you didn’t feel lonely
You were not yet in love
You were so generous and friendly
You were not yet in love
Love will expose you
Just to forgive you
Love will teach you how to cry
Love will tell you all your dirty secrets
And then leave you
Alone
Are you already scared enough
Are you ready to be found
Are you ready to be found out
Are you already scared enough
Are your ready to be found
Are you ready to be found out
Love will tell you
All your dirty secrets
And then leave you alone
With them
You must be pretty scared
Now that you really care
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7. |
Dogs Like Me
03:47
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Mother, dogs like me
Don’t like it when you
Look them in the eye
Grandma, snakes like me
Don’t like it when you
Try to shake their hands
I wish you knew
The things I went through
Every time we had a family meeting
I thought I was a loser
I though I was a freak
Setting up rules
My small ass didn’t understand
Now give me the hard
Give me the hard hand
Father, Butterflies like me
Don’t like it when you
Take them for a walk
Granddad, octopi like me
Don’t like it when you tell them
To toughen up
I wish you knew
The things I went through
Every time we had a family meeting
I thought I was a loser
I though I was a freak
Setting up rules
My small ass didn’t understand
Now give me the hard
Give me the hard hand
I know that you think that our childhood was good
But my brother and I were a pack of wolves
Mimicking sheep, kicking out teeth
And itch that won’t ease
Please
Little did we know
It was all the violence that showed
The church, the school, the sexism, classism, racism
The be quiet, be nice, be normal
The rush of our hormones
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8. |
Just Because I Regret It
03:56
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There I did it
I made you cry
There I didn’t
Say Goodbye
There I didn’t
Tell you why
Oh these fucked up family ties
Hello desire
To rewind
The painful wires
In my mind
Trauma makes me
One of a kind
Oh, I’m sorry, I’ve got invisible blinds
Just because I regret it
Doesn’t mean I won’t do it again and again
Just because I repeat it
Doesn’t mean that I don’t do everything that I can
There I’ve never
Written back
Ever so clever
And back to black
And whatever
My neurons lack
Is giving me another panic attack
You’re on a course
That you don’t wanna be on
Call it a curse
You’re on a course
That you don’t wanna be on
Call it a curse
You’re on a course
You’ve been here before
Say no more
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9. |
A Stupid Walk
04:57
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Darling
Won’t you take the world off your shoulder
You starting to look tense
Darling
Won’t you forget tomorrows worries
And come into the present tense
I know that you feel guilty almost all time
I know that you feel heavy
Must you always stay inside
Let the sunshine in
You might just wanna
Take a stupid walk in a stupid park
Your friends are wondering why your missing
Please just try to listen
To your ha ha ha heart
Healing
Takes more time than you have thought
But it’s been so much worse back then
Feeling
More at home in your own life by now
Do you remember when
You said you re feeling guilty almost all time
I know that you feel heavy must you always stay
Inside
You might just wanna
Take a stupid walk in a stupid park
Your friends are wondering why your missing
Please just try to listen
To your ha ha ha heart
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